A, B

I opened the door to see a beautiful blue eyed boy looking at me. He was wrapped in a blanket sewn by someone who will never know him. Wearing a pair of underwear 2 sizes to small, and a pair of pajamas 4 sizes to big. I love him instantly. He is mine. His bare feet are covered by the blanket he holds tightly to as he lays his head against the case worker he met only hours before. He is scared. So scared.

We invite her in and say hello. Tour of the house. Tell him he is going to be staying with us for a little while. He doesn't move. She sets him on his bed, tells us the little she knows, and walks away with my husband. I am alone with him for the first time. His smallness strikes me. This child sitting on the bed, holding his blanket, not looking at me, not moving. I try to talk to him and he begins to cry. "my brother" it is the only thing he says to me. I ask what brothers name is, but can't understand his reply. I pulled him into my arms, and he wrapped his little arms around my neck, laid his head against me, and cried. By this time Todd is standing in the door way. I promise this child we will find out where his brother is in the morning.

The next morning after a day of phone calls his sweet brother, B arrived. I can't express how incredible this sweet little soul is. I walked into the CPS office, was led around a corner by the case worker, and there he was, two brothers united. What I remember most is the first time we looked at each other, and him sitting there almost bouncing through the rest of the meeting as the this case worker, their case worker, told me more about the case. The first case worker only works in the office for after hours placements. A long ride home. School enrolling. doctors appointments. dentist, paper work, documenting, meetings. So busy.

A whirlwind of joy and tears.

A phone call. and we know they are leaving soon

another call and it's set for tomorrow

another call. and tomorrow fell through.

2 weeks go by and then it's set for monday. no sunday. no, this evening. no. 20 minuets from now.

and they are gone.